Its Complicated!

Thats d new word that every1 is in love with these days! I still remember those good ol' days, when if a guy even looked at u more than once and smiled, then u knew for sure that he's into u and that very soon he's going 2 propose u 4 "FRANDSHIP"! yup, thats how the guys in my home-town Howrah used to pronounce it! :) N of course, u knew that he was in love with u n d "frandship" bit was jus a camouflage...!
Sigh! Now, 10 years later, I'm still looking 4 that some1.. n d dating rules hav jus completely changed...!!! U should not hav 1 Bf 4 very long.. u really lose touch of ur game!! :D

I don't know if its jus with me, but now, even after go for many dates with the same guy, we are still friends..!! He likes me a lot, like a hell lot, can't take his eyes off me bull-sh**, but.... Yes ,there's a BUT! But, he's not ready to go d distance.....
I don't know why I never met guys like this till now.... I hav always been with the "Lets do it" guys... Lets do it = Lets get into a relationship.... Jus for clarification....
if he was really jus my friend, believe me, I would not take time to dress up.... ok, not that I do much when I say dress up, but it is definitely more than wearing jus abt any shorts n Tee n carrying my omnipresent bag n putting on d first pair of chappals I see at home...!
ok, on a serious note, its d emotional trauma, u know every date u r hoping things go fwd... but they never do.... u know u wanna mean d world 2 him.. but u r jus a continent.... maybe as small as Australia..!

Actually, I lose interest when nothing happens.. I feel things instantaneously n really don't get it when it hits ppl after 10 years that "F***, I was always in lov with her, but I never understood...." How can u b like a Physics Question Paper for ur own self where u don't have a clue on what happening in u..!!

Go in 4 it n if things don't work out, "move on,man!". No 1 listens to d fast track ad n I thought it was targeted 4 today's youth..! :P

N seriously, whats it with guys my age.. they are either married/as good as married...!
whatever happened to " ppl r getting married late!"
N dating younger men sucks..... Now, I realize how matured I have become...!! :)

I recently met some1 who has decided to go to the monastery because d woman he wanted to marry decided otherwise....! I am not sure if he jus said that 2 let me know that he was not available or something, but I am shocked that he is willing 2 swear in 4 a lifetime of celibacy 4 1 girl..!

All I can say is that in searching 4 that 1 guy that I can b in a relationship with I am getting to know a whole bunch of guys who I thought were jus a part of Ekta Kapoor serials...! That babe must have bin through hell to know abt so many types of men, I say! :)

Upon more pondering, I realize that guys my age find me 2 juvenile and I have d same thoughts abt guys younger than me!
In other words d circle of "guys I am attracted to" never interesects with the circle of "guys who r attracted to me" in the Venn Diagram-" why I am still single"! Don't tell me that u forgot d sorry Venn Diagrams we made in school...! I loved them though :)

Disclaimer "All references made in this blog are fictitious. Any resemblance 2 ur self/some1 u know is jus a coincidence "