Something happened which has left me feeling that I've lost something precious which no matter what I do, I cannot get. Its an empty feeling which u feel when u try ur best, but still come last in a race, though, u were sure b4 d race started and also during the race that u would win it n u so so wanted to win this race. :( :( :(
There is no 1 I can blame either.The only option life has given me is to get over it.
So, thought of writing how I am working on overcoming it
First, is to accept that you lost. Very difficult! Next step is to let go and move on n realize that this race was not the end of life and that there are more races to comes which you will win. Its difficult because you put ur best for this race and so you really do not know what more you can do to win the next one. Faith is the only one that can get u going.
I'm listening 2 sad songs.. they help me come back up faster.....
D more I feel d pain, d more it subsides...... I have no clue how it works for others.......
U know I have list of sad songs..... each 1 reminds me of a time when I was very sad...... I mean each sad song has a relevance.... they were d hit sad song of the time when I was sad and so I kept on listening to it till I couldn't listen anymore :)
Its like u go down so much that U can't go down any further and then the only way is up and so you recover.
D other thing that happens 2 me when I am terribly upset and or shocked is I fall sick... then, I am forced to concentrate on recovering n I recover from my sadness too...... I realize that I'v been jus letting my self fall too much and I should rise......
Or sometimes, I keep crying for days on end(crying is only in the morning and at night btw.. Can't stop going 2 work!) till I can't cry any longer...... I mean it gets tiring... all d crying...... then, I recover.....
Essentially, I stay in the state of melancholy, till I get so bored of it that I need to pull myself up. It helps that I get bored very fast :)
Indulging in what I like, like dancing, pottery, drawing, singing all to myself,watching a senti movie in which I cry at d drop of a hat.... also help... jus let-out for my pent-up emotions helps. Doing something well, like cooking a good meal or helping some1 works wonders too :)
Going on along drive with good music playing always works.. of course, u need a gr8 friend to drive u around... I hate driving.. so..... :)
Doing something new with a good friend.. like trying out a new restaurant or shopping at a grocery store helps. Grocery store is imp.... Shopping 4 clothes is an absolute no-no.... it depresses me even more.... if I like a top which does not fit well...... thats like a meteor hitting earth already terrorized by dinosaurs.... :)
Very girlie , I know...
Also meditating, concentrating on my breadth and telling myself, "Aaall is well! " :) It works.. do try it.... d time u spend with yourself is like an investment which gives huge returns in terms of your personality development. Do you realize that you are the only person who loves yourself unconditionally n always wants happiness for yourself all the time no matter what? Of course, your mother is the other person. U r an all-time project for yourself that you have full control over and that you can do wonders with and do the best job in the world with. So, make what you want with it and amaze the world.... :)
Not sure, which one will work this time or if I'll discover a new way to fight sadness....
All I am sure is that I am a survivor and I will come out of this pit n come out stronger :) and be on the kill again n probably win d next race....
All that we all need is hope, I guess....
I can add writing blog to my list as this is proving therapeutic :)
Life always has gr8 things to give us as long as we are not tightly closing our fist holding on to the past, but stretching our hands to touch the future :)
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Friday, August 13, 2010
who to call in an Emergency
I am a proud part of the ERT (Emergency Response Team) in my office(Cisco). Attending the 'Fire Safety' and 'Emergency Handling' training had added a new perspective in my life. Yes, its good to think positive that nothing bad shall ever happen to you or your near and dear ones or for that matter to random ppl. But, you know whats better?
Its better to be prepared to handle the worst situation the best way. Since, we can't get qualified to be doctors/fire personnel overnight, at least, we should know how to inform them at the earliest to minimize damage.
It is very important to call the right help in the right time because even a minute's difference or the type of amenities in the ambulance can make a sea of difference to endangering/saving a soul.
In Bollywood, when the doc tells the hero ,"aapne agar ek minute ki bhi aur der kar di hoti to hum inhe bachaa nahi paate, Well done young boy!", we are like, "WTF,pehli baat to woh young nahi hain aur doosri baathain ki - hero, yaar tu hamesha ek minute se hi kyu bachaata hain re, kabhi do minute ka bhi try kiya kar na!!". :) anyways,4 a change, its true! Not abt d hero being young yaar. Abt d 1 minute.Every second is precious n at that time, you really do not want to waste time asking around for the right number to call when ur already panicky.
I was embarrassed when I didn't know which number to call in case of a medical emergency.SO, this blog is dedicated to ignorant ppl like me. :) Dedicated to Indians who have grown on a such a staple diet of Hollywood that they do not know the 911 equivalent of namma Bharata.
Just listing easy to remember numbers for the benefit of people like me who do not know outside of the regular 100(Police),101(Fire),102(Medical) and 103(Traffic).
Now we have 108 as well which is like the superset of these, to be called only for real time emergencies. That apart, in Bangalore there is a very good network of Ambulances run by Sanjeevani,Rotary Club, and Apollo Hospital.
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http://www.sanjeevini.org/ - Number to call is 1062. Recommended as being pretty good by the Crisis Management Company "When-it-strikes" => Works only in namma Bengaluru.
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In India 108 (1-0-8) is the ERC telephone number of GVK Emergency Management and Research Institute, GVK EMRI (Emergency Management and Research Institute) is a pioneer in Emergency Management Services in India. As a not - for - profit professional organization operating in the Public Private Partnership (PPP) mode, GVK EMRI is the only professional Emergency Service Provider in India today.
GVK EMRI handles medical, police and fire emergencies through the " 1-0-8 Emergency service". This is a free service delivered through state- of -art emergency call response centres and has over 1900 ambulances across Andhra Pradesh, Gujarat, Uttarakhand, Goa, Tamil Nadu, Rajasthan,Karnataka, Assam Meghalaya and Madhya Pradesh. With the expansion of fleet and services set to spread across more states, GVK EMRI will have more than 10000 ambulances covering over a billion population by 2011.
http://www.emri.in/content/view/24/59/ - Please read info on this site. It has some useful info on the services they offer.
=> All India coverage mostly
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Emergency Ambulance Services
Listed Below are The Emergency Ambulance Services Available in Bangalore :
Comprehensive Trauma Consortium(Sanjeevani) - 1062 / 25202222
Jayadeva Heart Brigade - 1051
Rotary Life Saving Brigade - 1050
=>Known for having a very good setup within the ambulance and especially well –equipped for handling heart attacks. They have Defibrillators, which increase the chance of heart revival by 80% on usage.
Apollo Hospitals - 1066
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
As you know these numbers can be dialed from any phone booth or your mobile free of cost.
Mobiles also have a emergency number that can be dialed from anywhere. It does not need a SIM in your cell phone or you being in your own network coverage area or balance in your cell phone (for prepaid users). This number is valid across the globe. It is 112. The way it works is, the call made by you is handled by a person from the Service Provider’s network you connect to and they in turn contact the ambulance service/ fire brigade of that area. It’s a useful number in case of an emergency away from your native city and where no help is available apart from network connectivity to any service provider.
101 is not just for Fire, it is also for Rescue services. So, for e.g if a building has collapsed, the number to call would be 101 for clearing debris and ambulance (102) for taking the injured to the hospital. When calling, make sure you mention address, landmark, number to contact(in case they have trouble locating the place) and also nature of fire, so that they can prepare with the right kind of extinguisher when approaching the scene of action. The extinguishers vary based on if the fire is from burning of petrol/combustible oil , combustible gas like LPG, short circuit, combustible metal , wood etc.
It’s ok to call more than one number and avail help from the one that reaches fastest. No one is going to complain/scold you for trying multiple options when a life is at stake.
Try and store these numbers on your phone. These may save an important life when needed.
What I say next is not just to add masala to my blog. I lost a friend recently in a car accident. He was on the highway on his way to Hassan. I bet, if the people on the road had called paramedics at the right time, I would be probably partying with him and other school friends of mine in Bangkok next month.
So, make note of this info to make sure that if you're around, no life is lost due to ignorance of the lowest order.
Lemme talk another important idiosyncracy that I learnt about. People have a tendency to put water in the mouth of a person who is unconscious in hope of giving him much needed water that might revive him. Absolute bull-crap. DON'T. You'll kill him/her. When we are unconscious/asleep for that matter, any water fed through our mouth goes through our windpipe to our lungs and hence can choke us to death. At any point of time, either food/wind pipe can be open. So, when we are sleeping and not eating/drinking, epiglottis (traffic policeman at the junction of food n wind pipe) opens the much needed wind pipe n sleeps with u.
If you try noticing your gulping action, you'll realize that you can't breathe at that time.
So, its ok to sprinkle water on face, but not feeding it.
Try and learn CPR. As per the new finding, you really dont have to give mouth-to-mouth. So, if the victim is hot n happening, u never heard of the new rule, else u r always up-2-date :)
Another imp info. All hospitals don't take in patients with burns. Bowring Hospital is one that takes.
Thats it on the "Gyaan" front from me for now :) So, be aware! :)
Its better to be prepared to handle the worst situation the best way. Since, we can't get qualified to be doctors/fire personnel overnight, at least, we should know how to inform them at the earliest to minimize damage.
It is very important to call the right help in the right time because even a minute's difference or the type of amenities in the ambulance can make a sea of difference to endangering/saving a soul.
In Bollywood, when the doc tells the hero ,"aapne agar ek minute ki bhi aur der kar di hoti to hum inhe bachaa nahi paate, Well done young boy!", we are like, "WTF,pehli baat to woh young nahi hain aur doosri baathain ki - hero, yaar tu hamesha ek minute se hi kyu bachaata hain re, kabhi do minute ka bhi try kiya kar na!!". :) anyways,4 a change, its true! Not abt d hero being young yaar. Abt d 1 minute.Every second is precious n at that time, you really do not want to waste time asking around for the right number to call when ur already panicky.
I was embarrassed when I didn't know which number to call in case of a medical emergency.SO, this blog is dedicated to ignorant ppl like me. :) Dedicated to Indians who have grown on a such a staple diet of Hollywood that they do not know the 911 equivalent of namma Bharata.
Just listing easy to remember numbers for the benefit of people like me who do not know outside of the regular 100(Police),101(Fire),102(Medical) and 103(Traffic).
Now we have 108 as well which is like the superset of these, to be called only for real time emergencies. That apart, in Bangalore there is a very good network of Ambulances run by Sanjeevani,Rotary Club, and Apollo Hospital.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
http://www.sanjeevini.org/ - Number to call is 1062. Recommended as being pretty good by the Crisis Management Company "When-it-strikes" => Works only in namma Bengaluru.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
In India 108 (1-0-8) is the ERC telephone number of GVK Emergency Management and Research Institute, GVK EMRI (Emergency Management and Research Institute) is a pioneer in Emergency Management Services in India. As a not - for - profit professional organization operating in the Public Private Partnership (PPP) mode, GVK EMRI is the only professional Emergency Service Provider in India today.
GVK EMRI handles medical, police and fire emergencies through the " 1-0-8 Emergency service". This is a free service delivered through state- of -art emergency call response centres and has over 1900 ambulances across Andhra Pradesh, Gujarat, Uttarakhand, Goa, Tamil Nadu, Rajasthan,Karnataka, Assam Meghalaya and Madhya Pradesh. With the expansion of fleet and services set to spread across more states, GVK EMRI will have more than 10000 ambulances covering over a billion population by 2011.
http://www.emri.in/content/view/24/59/ - Please read info on this site. It has some useful info on the services they offer.
=> All India coverage mostly
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Emergency Ambulance Services
Listed Below are The Emergency Ambulance Services Available in Bangalore :
Comprehensive Trauma Consortium(Sanjeevani) - 1062 / 25202222
Jayadeva Heart Brigade - 1051
Rotary Life Saving Brigade - 1050
=>Known for having a very good setup within the ambulance and especially well –equipped for handling heart attacks. They have Defibrillators, which increase the chance of heart revival by 80% on usage.
Apollo Hospitals - 1066
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
As you know these numbers can be dialed from any phone booth or your mobile free of cost.
Mobiles also have a emergency number that can be dialed from anywhere. It does not need a SIM in your cell phone or you being in your own network coverage area or balance in your cell phone (for prepaid users). This number is valid across the globe. It is 112. The way it works is, the call made by you is handled by a person from the Service Provider’s network you connect to and they in turn contact the ambulance service/ fire brigade of that area. It’s a useful number in case of an emergency away from your native city and where no help is available apart from network connectivity to any service provider.
101 is not just for Fire, it is also for Rescue services. So, for e.g if a building has collapsed, the number to call would be 101 for clearing debris and ambulance (102) for taking the injured to the hospital. When calling, make sure you mention address, landmark, number to contact(in case they have trouble locating the place) and also nature of fire, so that they can prepare with the right kind of extinguisher when approaching the scene of action. The extinguishers vary based on if the fire is from burning of petrol/combustible oil , combustible gas like LPG, short circuit, combustible metal , wood etc.
It’s ok to call more than one number and avail help from the one that reaches fastest. No one is going to complain/scold you for trying multiple options when a life is at stake.
Try and store these numbers on your phone. These may save an important life when needed.
What I say next is not just to add masala to my blog. I lost a friend recently in a car accident. He was on the highway on his way to Hassan. I bet, if the people on the road had called paramedics at the right time, I would be probably partying with him and other school friends of mine in Bangkok next month.
So, make note of this info to make sure that if you're around, no life is lost due to ignorance of the lowest order.
Lemme talk another important idiosyncracy that I learnt about. People have a tendency to put water in the mouth of a person who is unconscious in hope of giving him much needed water that might revive him. Absolute bull-crap. DON'T. You'll kill him/her. When we are unconscious/asleep for that matter, any water fed through our mouth goes through our windpipe to our lungs and hence can choke us to death. At any point of time, either food/wind pipe can be open. So, when we are sleeping and not eating/drinking, epiglottis (traffic policeman at the junction of food n wind pipe) opens the much needed wind pipe n sleeps with u.
If you try noticing your gulping action, you'll realize that you can't breathe at that time.
So, its ok to sprinkle water on face, but not feeding it.
Try and learn CPR. As per the new finding, you really dont have to give mouth-to-mouth. So, if the victim is hot n happening, u never heard of the new rule, else u r always up-2-date :)
Another imp info. All hospitals don't take in patients with burns. Bowring Hospital is one that takes.
Thats it on the "Gyaan" front from me for now :) So, be aware! :)
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Its Complicated!
Thats d new word that every1 is in love with these days! I still remember those good ol' days, when if a guy even looked at u more than once and smiled, then u knew for sure that he's into u and that very soon he's going 2 propose u 4 "FRANDSHIP"! yup, thats how the guys in my home-town Howrah used to pronounce it! :) N of course, u knew that he was in love with u n d "frandship" bit was jus a camouflage...!
Sigh! Now, 10 years later, I'm still looking 4 that some1.. n d dating rules hav jus completely changed...!!! U should not hav 1 Bf 4 very long.. u really lose touch of ur game!! :D
I don't know if its jus with me, but now, even after go for many dates with the same guy, we are still friends..!! He likes me a lot, like a hell lot, can't take his eyes off me bull-sh**, but.... Yes ,there's a BUT! But, he's not ready to go d distance.....
I don't know why I never met guys like this till now.... I hav always been with the "Lets do it" guys... Lets do it = Lets get into a relationship.... Jus for clarification....
if he was really jus my friend, believe me, I would not take time to dress up.... ok, not that I do much when I say dress up, but it is definitely more than wearing jus abt any shorts n Tee n carrying my omnipresent bag n putting on d first pair of chappals I see at home...!
ok, on a serious note, its d emotional trauma, u know every date u r hoping things go fwd... but they never do.... u know u wanna mean d world 2 him.. but u r jus a continent.... maybe as small as Australia..!
Actually, I lose interest when nothing happens.. I feel things instantaneously n really don't get it when it hits ppl after 10 years that "F***, I was always in lov with her, but I never understood...." How can u b like a Physics Question Paper for ur own self where u don't have a clue on what happening in u..!!
Go in 4 it n if things don't work out, "move on,man!". No 1 listens to d fast track ad n I thought it was targeted 4 today's youth..! :P
N seriously, whats it with guys my age.. they are either married/as good as married...!
whatever happened to " ppl r getting married late!"
N dating younger men sucks..... Now, I realize how matured I have become...!! :)
I recently met some1 who has decided to go to the monastery because d woman he wanted to marry decided otherwise....! I am not sure if he jus said that 2 let me know that he was not available or something, but I am shocked that he is willing 2 swear in 4 a lifetime of celibacy 4 1 girl..!
All I can say is that in searching 4 that 1 guy that I can b in a relationship with I am getting to know a whole bunch of guys who I thought were jus a part of Ekta Kapoor serials...! That babe must have bin through hell to know abt so many types of men, I say! :)
Upon more pondering, I realize that guys my age find me 2 juvenile and I have d same thoughts abt guys younger than me!
In other words d circle of "guys I am attracted to" never interesects with the circle of "guys who r attracted to me" in the Venn Diagram-" why I am still single"! Don't tell me that u forgot d sorry Venn Diagrams we made in school...! I loved them though :)
Disclaimer "All references made in this blog are fictitious. Any resemblance 2 ur self/some1 u know is jus a coincidence "
Sigh! Now, 10 years later, I'm still looking 4 that some1.. n d dating rules hav jus completely changed...!!! U should not hav 1 Bf 4 very long.. u really lose touch of ur game!! :D
I don't know if its jus with me, but now, even after go for many dates with the same guy, we are still friends..!! He likes me a lot, like a hell lot, can't take his eyes off me bull-sh**, but.... Yes ,there's a BUT! But, he's not ready to go d distance.....
I don't know why I never met guys like this till now.... I hav always been with the "Lets do it" guys... Lets do it = Lets get into a relationship.... Jus for clarification....
if he was really jus my friend, believe me, I would not take time to dress up.... ok, not that I do much when I say dress up, but it is definitely more than wearing jus abt any shorts n Tee n carrying my omnipresent bag n putting on d first pair of chappals I see at home...!
ok, on a serious note, its d emotional trauma, u know every date u r hoping things go fwd... but they never do.... u know u wanna mean d world 2 him.. but u r jus a continent.... maybe as small as Australia..!
Actually, I lose interest when nothing happens.. I feel things instantaneously n really don't get it when it hits ppl after 10 years that "F***, I was always in lov with her, but I never understood...." How can u b like a Physics Question Paper for ur own self where u don't have a clue on what happening in u..!!
Go in 4 it n if things don't work out, "move on,man!". No 1 listens to d fast track ad n I thought it was targeted 4 today's youth..! :P
N seriously, whats it with guys my age.. they are either married/as good as married...!
whatever happened to " ppl r getting married late!"
N dating younger men sucks..... Now, I realize how matured I have become...!! :)
I recently met some1 who has decided to go to the monastery because d woman he wanted to marry decided otherwise....! I am not sure if he jus said that 2 let me know that he was not available or something, but I am shocked that he is willing 2 swear in 4 a lifetime of celibacy 4 1 girl..!
All I can say is that in searching 4 that 1 guy that I can b in a relationship with I am getting to know a whole bunch of guys who I thought were jus a part of Ekta Kapoor serials...! That babe must have bin through hell to know abt so many types of men, I say! :)
Upon more pondering, I realize that guys my age find me 2 juvenile and I have d same thoughts abt guys younger than me!
In other words d circle of "guys I am attracted to" never interesects with the circle of "guys who r attracted to me" in the Venn Diagram-" why I am still single"! Don't tell me that u forgot d sorry Venn Diagrams we made in school...! I loved them though :)
Disclaimer "All references made in this blog are fictitious. Any resemblance 2 ur self/some1 u know is jus a coincidence "
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